14th

thankyou anyway, dear :)

Desember 6th

Desember 6th 2010 was his 18th birthday and i gave him a shoddy scrapbook, i made it by myself and as you know i'm an amateur in this kind of thing hehehe

not good enough, huh ?

hmm, and the gift? i haven't give the gift to him, maybe when i already in Jakarta i will send the gift to him by post.yes, now i'm in my lovely hometown, Malang :D

for what the gift that i'm going to give to him i will tell you later when he already accept that hehe

by the way, now december 29th is my elder sister's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, wishing you have a good life..

aaaaaand, HAPPY 30 FOR TOMORROW :D

me stressed out :'(

i'm stressed maximum with this campus things !!!

imy, mom

have you ever miss someone until you feel like crazy person ? have no directions, lazy doing something, feel bored everyday, no stamina ?

i have ever feel it, i feel it, now

now i feel like crazy, me like on the top of boredom in this life

need refreshments

and it all would be cured by my mom, only my mom. my doctor, my hero, my sunshine, my superwoman, my cheerleader and my everything. she is everything in my life, i'll become nothing without her

i need her now, i miss her a lot, i miss her so much, i miss her like crazy now. but now she's miles away from me, she's in malang and me in jakarta

but i'm grateful..tomorrow she will come here, come to jakarta, to see me 

can't wait for tomorrow, can't wait to meet my mom, my beloved mom..

i love you, mom. so much

$&#%*@

aaaaaaa sumpah ini namanya anjing ! tapi aku yang bodoh :(

i hate this part of my life , which called stupidity

i hate you ! you ruined my wonderful life, it could be more wonderful and amazing if there was no you in my life

fuck you jerk !

by the way thankyou for myA who bring happyness around me, thnkyousomuch.ily

the new beginning

hey , yesterday was october 30th and it should be our first anniversary..

it was rains heavily when a postman knocked on my door and gave me a package wrapped in a brown paper, and the package was adressed to Farikha Medina, and that was me. and i already know that the package was from you, because previously you ever said that you sent me something hehe

i opened the package and.....its content were two pieces of cds, abdul and the coffee theory and maliq&d'essentials..

and there i found some notes, you wrote 'happy october 30th 2010 nana' and wrote some beatiful words, and i love it :)

you said, the songs in that cds must be make me remember about you and we will end up with a happy ending like abdul and coffee theory's song

i said, thankyou for the cds and it will be the new beginning of a beautiful life like the name of maliq&d'essentials album :)

for me, farikha medina :)

from him, angga hutama putra :)

the notes and some beatiful words

love theory and the beginning of a beautiful love

and this is it, happy october 30th for you and me and thankyou for making my 30th october wonderful, jeeeee :)

and once again, i'm really happy to know the news jeee, i'm waiting hereeeeee :D

homesick

horraaaay finally the midterm exam is over yaaaay!

happy weekend everyone :)

by the way, i miss malang :( all about malang. all the people, all places, all the things.

i envy them who can easily come back to their home when weekend come. and their parents pick them up after school. kiss their cheek and forehead...

oh pity me, how i miss my hometown, my family, my friends and my old life :(

Hate That I Love You - Rihanna (feat. Ne-Yo)

That's how much I love you

That's how much I need you

And I can't stand you

Must everything you do

Make me wanna smile

Can I not like it for awhile?
 

No...
 

But you won't let me
You upset me girl

Then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget

That I was upset
Can't remember what you did

But I hate it

You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long, that's wrong

But I hate it

You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you boy 

I can't stand how much I need you 
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so..

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
 

Sad and it's not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me..

That's how much I love you
How much I need you
That's how much I need you
That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you

And I hate that I love you sooo...
And I hate how much I love you boy 
I can't stand how much I need you 

And I hate how much I love you boy 
But I just can't let you go 
And I hate that I love you so
 

And I hate that I love you so.. so..

the puzzled me and the midtest

barusan belajar technobiz buat uts besok senin, terus abis belajar sempet ngobrol dikit sama dua orang temen dan mereka ngomongin satu topik yang bikin aku sedikit ngerasa yaaa kinda puzzled and make me speechless.............
...........
...........
ah udah stop gak usah mikirin masalah lain, uts udah di depan mata. anyway, welcome to the midtest era and wish me tons of luck for my midtest exams, xoxo

thankyou oovoo

big thanks to oovoo, i love you oovooo :*

and thankyou for my friend, Lisa who told me about oovoo :*

bsd partners

hello i have two partners here, in bsd city. they are Samid and Rezha , we're all from Malang and study in same college, prasmul :D
we're a good friends, we met when we were in junior high school and then we were split up when entering senior high school and now we meet again in college
here it is Samid, Rezha and me :

i beg you, please.....

it drives me crazy, i don't want you but on the other hand i realize that i could never let you go and i know for sure that i love you so much and you loves me too
you often say that i don't care about you, i don't think of you, i don't love you like you do
but don't you know that i always care about you ? that i always thinking of you here ? that i always love you ? that you're always in my mind wherever i am
you'll never know that i always tell a lot of stories about you to my friends, that i always worry whenever i'm in fight with you, and how i miss our good time when you and me can do some jokes and we laugh and tell each other some stories. and it's all drives me mad
so please understand me, don't judge me like that. and please you understand that now we're not the same like we were in the past two months..
and i beg you, please know my situations and please understand how do i feel here. i don't begging for the freak or abnormal things, i just want that.please...............

good-bye

you have your own world and i have my own world
so, mind your own life and i mind my own life
do your own business and i do my own business
thankyou for all dude, see you

G !

oh my god ! aku tambah gendut di kosan :( huaaaaa sumpah ya aku sekarang lemaknya 3 kali lipat dari biasanya kali yah errrrrgh , aku mau diet dong aku mau kurus lagi aku mau fitness olahraga apa gitu deh pokoknya aaaa aku mau turun lagi beratnyaaaaa :'(
tapi emang sih gimana gak gendut kalo persediaan makanan di kosan kaya begini

aku mau beratku balik lagi waktu kaya aku awal-awal ngekos aku gamau makin gendut aaaaaaaa :'(
gimme some tips pleaseeeeeeeee :(

almamater jacket finally :D

here it is the photo of me with the almamater jacket

me with evellyn, devita, lisa and firna

aren't that nice ? LOL !

tidak penting tapi penting

" your temper just as bad as mine, you're the same as me
but when it comes to love, you're just as blinded as me"

" maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
all I know is I love you too much to walk away"

the october

btw, i miss him. although he's not mine.

:'(

i miss us, me+you..

i'm officially Prasetiya Mulya student :D

long time no see you all my blog readers , that because i'm really really busy with those campus things. and that made me crazyeeeh and mad with all the people around me , i'm really sorry from my deepest heart. especially for the superboy, Angga. okay let me say to you all that i'm really happy because now i'm officially become Prasetiya Mulya student. after going through various kinds of activities from introductory programme, outbond, PrasMul Gives Back and its peak is welcoming night :D
it such a long journey until i became the real PrasMul student and i'm happy for that :D

first is IP, IP is introductory programme a kind of programme that especially made for the new students for prasmul's new students so that they could adapt with prasmul. it contain a lot of events and activities it held for a month.

nametag for IP

kak Ica, my senior that I interviewed

kak Viera, vice president of SB that I interviewed


some of my partners in group 15 for IP

the second, outbond. i don't have a lot photo for outbond i just have the nametag and necklace that indicating that you've passed the outbond well. I got a lot of experience there althought it's distressing but it was fun.

nametag and the necklace, i passed the outbond :D

third, PrasMul Gives Back, this is the social event that was made and organized by batch 6. so the event was invited Timor Leste children and treat them as well as we can.

PrasMul Gives Back

batik dresscode on PrasMul Gives Back

the last, welcoming night. this is the peak of the introductory programme, it's mean that we officially become Prasetiya Mulya students, in this event also held the selection of the president of batch 6 and handovered the almamater jacket. and the uniqueness of this event is the dresscode, you must be wear movie character costume. and i wore classical european costume..

my costume :D

with nike the pirates and rara the luigi

by the way i don't have a lot of photos of welcoming night, i didn't bring my camera how sad :(
that's all my journey on introductory programme that i could tell to you all.
wish me for my college in prasmul, wish me be the future business champion..

baby basic

i got a new baby from BASIC by Valonia Irene, here it is: basic's light grey

this is a cute shirt, you can wear it with a variety of style and also mix and matching with various kind of clothing, isn't that lovely ? yes, of course
and someday i'll post my photograph wearing this basic's shirt :D
sooooo, go get yourself this basic's light grey in ---> BASIC by Valonia Irene , grab them fast :D

congratulations for the 65th

a year ago

when i was opening a photo documents in my computer, i found this :

this is the photograph when i was in 3rd grade of high school, in school events: pondok ramadhan. oh i damnly miss those moments :(

:'(

no one can comfort you even if it was me, i'm sorry :(

have you ever ?

have you ever think about me ?
have you ever think about my feel ?
have you ever imagine to be me ?
have you ever imagine to feel what i feel ?
have you ever consider about what i did to you ?
have you ever consider about what i gave to you ?
and have you ever care about what i feel all this time ? have you ever ?

what a ..... night !

hello again :D
aku nulis blog ini di kamar.malem-malem.dingin.gelap.sendiri..gatau kenapa tiba-tiba aja itu tadi ambil laptop terus pengen nulis blog padahal uda siap mau tiduuur huhu so random di malem hari
by the way, aku lagi kangen kamu sekarang....err padahal kita tadi baru ketemu dan mau ketemu lagi besok
aku bukan kangen kamunya sebenernya,
i miss our quality time
i miss june 24th
i miss our safari trip
i miss our surabaya trip
i miss anything about us
i miss you, i miss all the things about us and....you

wanted stuffs

hello all , how are youuuu ? me fine :D ah by the way after surfing the internet and opened some websites i found a lotta cool stuffsss, and i really want it
okay, first i really want this rare print ray ban sunglasses

second, i want a custom made vans era or keds shoesss

by the way when i went to singapore last holiday i found a really cute vans era shoes which have thinner soles, but when i asked to the shopkeeper there's no size for me , huhu how pity me :(

and the third is butterfly twist shoes

i ever tried to buy this shoes in the online store, but the credit card can't use in uk :( and then i tried to buy in ebay but still the same, they can't accept the credit card maybe i'll try again someday hehe

that's part of things that i want for now, i can't tell you all what i want haha maybe someday i'll tell you in my other post. oh yaaa and one thing that i really want is my cameraaaa back it broke :( it causes when i was rafting and i brought it with me huhu, it makes me hard to take a picture of my activities and make me lazy to post a blog haha
see youuuuu :*

nice quote :)

Defeat is not the worst of failures, not to have tried is the true failure

-George Edward Woodberry-

love and pencil

hello, i'm back with my silly theory and it's talk about love and pencil :p
okay let's start, here is my silly theory....

kalo kita sayang seseorang itu ibarat kita nulis di kertas putih pake pensil
semakin kamu tebel nulis di kertas itu, semakin susah buat kamu ngehapusnya
kalopun bisa dihapus pasti nanti berbekas
walopun kamu tindes pake tulisan lain pasti akan ada bekas tulisan lama diatas tulisan yang baru

haha, and that's my dumb theory. very novel right ? haha i think so x_x

it just too random

random life, random thought, random me
i don't know what should i write here, it just too complicated to mention. i don't have any idea, i don't know what i needed now i don't know what's rotating on my mind i don't know anything aaaa it's so miserable
i'm stressed out and i'm bored :(

nice quote :)

My mother drew a distinction between achievement and success. She said that achievement is the knowledge that you have studied and worked hard and done the best that is in you. Success is being praised by others, and that's nice, too, but not as important or satisfying. Always aim for achievement and forget about success

-Helen Hayes-

i need a vacation, please

engga tau kenapa ya akhir akhir ini jadi suka emosi sendiri gitu deh, jadi gampang marah marah ga jelas hmm mungkin karena terlalu lama nganggur dirumah dan ngga ada kegiatan sama sekali
tiga bulan nganggur itu sumpah ya gak enak banget, bikin otak tumpul ! hahaha
kegiatan yang cuma itu itu aja, it's kinda bored
errr that's why i really really really need a vacation

oh iya ngomong-ngomong ini posting pertama aku yang pake bahasa indonesia loh hehe hmm bukannya kemarin sok-sok pake bahasa inggris gitu bukaaan, cuman emang lagi pengen nglatih ajaa sih hehe soalnya sekarang inggrisku getting worse bangeeet haha
hmm yaudah dulu deh ya, ini lagi buntu banget gangerti mau nulis apa lagian uda ngantuk juga nih, hehe
good night :)

my new deariessss

hello, it's me again :D
today's entirely normal day, in the morning until the afternoon i went out with my boyfriend and then i went home to accompany my mom to Gramedia, i got some books there haha and this is it my new friends for this super-long holiday

finally i got MMJ by Raditya Dika yippie :D , be prepared to accompany me dearies

anyway, i also got a CD that has been sought by my bf for long time ago

Night To Remember's CD

by the way this afternoon i joked with my sister and she pinched my arm to bruise huhu, pity me

it bruised

and so pity me laptop too, a lot of virus in it.now i write blogs, accompanied by the sound of 'tlit tlit' of its antivirus haha should be brought to an expert as soon as possible huhu

so random todaaaay but it was fun :D

hello world cup !

now is 10th of June and today is the opening of FIFA World Cup 2010 that held in South Africa..by the way the opening ceremony was so great and fantastic, two thumbs up for South Africa and all people who have supported and participated..oh ya yaaa and i vote England for World Cup 2010,go England goooo !!!! :D

so, welcome FIFA World Cup 2010 and happy World Cup fever everyone :)

fredflare

i just blogwalked and i found an online shopping sites that's very awesome, a lot of cool fashion stuffs there. and i am very tempted to see hahaha

this the kind of the dress

aren't that coin purse really cute ?

and this the other cool stuffs

if you're interested to find another stuffs just open fredflare :D

missyaaaaah

anyway, i really miss my mates, my bezzyclassmates. wanyu and ipul..

when we were at BNS

but sadly, for now we've rarely going out together, because they were busy in preparing for the SNMPTN..oooh c'mon let's be quick about it all and we end up playing together again :D
and i wish you both a tons of luck and get the college major that you want, i heart youuuu so much mates :)
that's all for both of you and now my eyes drifted shut,haha. good night :)

strength and fortitude

starting from today, i feel that my every second, minute, hour and my day that i spent with you is a very precious things. considering that those moment will come closer an closer, it's only remaining no more than two months. and i am not ready yet. i am not ready yet !
hello, Jakarta-Malang isn't near. me at Jakarta and you're in Malang
oh God, give us more strength and fortitude please...

thankyou

thanks for this day , for you who ruin my day

this called destiny

well, this is my second post on this blog, i want to share my feel hehe
hmm okay, this 9th day of June 2010 which I think is just an ordinary day, but it turned out to be a day of chaos

it started this early morning when i opened my twitter account and i read my friend's tweet that said: "ayo yang ikut usm itb semangaaaat semoga keterima :D"
from here i just told my boyfriend that was participating in USM-ITB, he directly told me to access the website of ITB. when i've accessed, written there that the announcement would be there for the afternoon.....

2.40 P.M.
and he texted me to access the ITB's website again and opened his account there. when i've opened the account and i read that ........ (boom booom booom)
he was not accepted
and this was very very very shocking me up
it's feel like my world would end (hahahah no noooo)
but it was very terrible for me because it's mean that we will establish a long distance relationship :'(
oh nooooo ! i'm not ready yet ! i'm not ready for the long distance relationship :(



but maybe this is the best way god created us, this called destiny :)
and now it depend from each of us how we can survive with a situation which our life would be
we must be sure that we can through this, dear :*

ILY,A