i beg you, please.....

it drives me crazy, i don't want you but on the other hand i realize that i could never let you go and i know for sure that i love you so much and you loves me too
you often say that i don't care about you, i don't think of you, i don't love you like you do
but don't you know that i always care about you ? that i always thinking of you here ? that i always love you ? that you're always in my mind wherever i am
you'll never know that i always tell a lot of stories about you to my friends, that i always worry whenever i'm in fight with you, and how i miss our good time when you and me can do some jokes and we laugh and tell each other some stories. and it's all drives me mad
so please understand me, don't judge me like that. and please you understand that now we're not the same like we were in the past two months..
and i beg you, please know my situations and please understand how do i feel here. i don't begging for the freak or abnormal things, i just want that.please...............